Sunday, October 24, 2010


No one is promised tomorrow,
No one is promised today.

No one will be able to breathe,
if life keeps going on this way.
So we need to live for the outcome of beauty; because beauty is only skin deep
We need to believe in our future,
we need to be able to dream.
So live for the moment,
live on the edge,
live to make life your show.
Because if the safe are still safe,
and the scared remain scared...
Well how will we ever know?


Life moves so quickly, passing one by without allowing room for breath. And when one does inhale again one finds that all that was known has all but disappeared in the folds of time. Another Ramadan has passed me by, and this one was an oppertunity wasted. Another year has passed, and I find my self reading my words, still feeling those very sentiments (well excluding the first few posts on this blog).

Much has occurred since my last post, but at the same time nothing has changed. By the grace of Allah swt I have been able to return overseas to continue my studies (I went home for the Southern Winter), but I am not enjoying it. The place I am in fills me with loathing and brings the very worst in me to the surface. I cannot wait to move onto the next place - but then I'll still be taking myself with me. I wish I could find a way to disassociate myself from me, but I can't work out just who I am. I still feel lost. Waiting. Wanting. Longing for things that are not mine to be had. When I think of these things my heart fills with sadness. I recognise someone lost, but know of know way to find that direction. Its not a religion thing. Its a "who am I" thing. Who am I? What defines me? What do I want? I see nothing. I am not individual. There is nothing that makes me "different" from anyone else. There is no definition. I feel formless but bound by something I can't see - can only feel. Am I speaking of the ruh? Do I lack the skill and intelligence to figure this out. I've been thinking on it for many months now. If you ask me who I am - I'll tell you I don't know.

Today was Eid. Subhan'allah it was truely a day of blessings. Al-hamdoulillah I made it to the masjid for the prayer and afterwards, everyone (I mean everyone - native, foreigner, guest and resident) hugged, kissed, spread the eid greetings and truely wished well for each other for the sake of Allah swt. There were about 60women in that masjid, and every single one waited to greet everyone else. No one ran away. No one seperated into their little cliques - as happens at home. It was something I may never experience again and I loved it. Islam.
Myself and the other single sisters had a delicious pancake breakfast afterwards which was followed by sleep. But upon waking I felt dull. Empty. Like there was something missing. Me?

I don't know how to communicate what it is.

XH has remarried (actually it was a couple of months ago now). Al-hamdoulillah that makes me happy and I truely hope from the bottom of my heart that it works out for him. I often wonder if I will remarry. How I would be able to trust someone. Find someone who could stand up to being all I needed them to be. I don't have a strict criteria - there are many things that don't even cross my mind. But what I do want is hard to find. And to be honest, I don't know if I really want it. There have been oppertunities, but I pass them all up. They are not the answer. Its not my time. Subhan'allah. Where am I and how do I navigate away from this loss of everything I am or thought I was? Why am I taking so long to find a path?

Oh how time only brings us nearer to our ultimate destiny - and how ignorant we are of that end. Subhan'allah.

Saturday, October 23, 2010


It’s an amazing feeling, you know, that even after a bad news, a bad day, a bad heart break, there will always be that one person strong enough to remind me to keep moving forward - myself. 

“When God takes something from your grasp, He’s not punishing you, but merely opening your hands to receive something better”.

Slowly, but surely, I am learning to take a hold of this concept. I am growing up. More & more, I am realizing the reality - when one door closes another one opens. God took away so much from me the past few months, the past few years but I realized as well, how much he reciprocated that with bigger & better things.
Things really just happen for a reason. For sure, we hit roadbocks in the highway of life. But they are there for a sole reason. To educate us, to prepare us for the worst, to make us stronger, to shape us into a better person with better understanding of what reality is. ‘Cause in all honesty, life ain’t fucking easy. No body said it ever was, right?
Life is what you basically make it to be. If you stress over the problems too much, you will definitely overlook the things that make you happy. Therefore, you will never ever be happy. You will never appreciate what you already have in your hands. You will fail to notice the good things, since you are limited to seeing the bad things. You will never be satisfied.
If set your goals, there will always be roadblocks.  I have them, just as much as everyone does. But these pieces of shits don’t have to stop you. Yes, they slow you down but that process is to remind you to keep going, to keep trying. If you run into a brick wall, don’t turn around and let go. Figure out how to climb it, go through it, or work around it.

-Thanks Carmela, 2009

Friday, October 22, 2010


Ujian yang dihadapi oleh manusia di dunia ini adalah dalam dua bentuk iaitu sama ada kesusahan atau kesenangan. Kedua-dua ujian itu benar-benar menguji kita sebagai hambanya.
Ingatlah bahawa kehidupan di dunia yang meliputi kemewahan dengan segala pangkat kebesaran dan kesenangan itu adalah sekadar ujian. Sesungguhnya hanya bagi mereka yang terpedaya yang akan hanyut dengan ujian ini.
Sedangkan dugaan kesusahan dan kesengsaraan di dunia pula, kadangkala membuatkan kita rasa lemah dan putus asa. Kadangkala kita seringkali mengeluh dengan apa yang ditetapkan untuk kita, dan seringkali jua kita persoalkan itu dan ini tentang takdir yang telah tertulis oleh-Nya. Apakah dengan penerimaan sebegini kita fikir kita cukup redha dengan ketentuan-Nya? Kadangkala pula kita seringkali merumuskan itu dan ini tentang ketetapan-Nya.
'Jikalau dugaan ini tiada, sudah tentu aku begini...'
'Jikalau ini tidak terjadi sudah tentu aku begitu.... '
Apakah kita fikir kita lebih tahu dari Dia yang menciptakan kita? Dan apakah kita fikir kita sebenarnya lebih tahu apa yang terbaik untuk kita?
Subhanallah. Maha suci Allah!
Sudah tentu kita hamba yang kerdil ini tidak tahu apa-apa berbanding Dia yang Maha Sempurna. Namun tanpa kita sedari segala persoalan yang timbul dibenak kita sebenarnya telahpun terjawab dalam Kalam Allah. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui akan sesuatu, maka Dia juga Maha Mengetahui persoalan yang bakal timbul di fikiran hambaNya. Maka Dia lebih dahulu menjawab persoalan itu dalam ayat-ayat-Nya.
Inilah jawapan Allah tehadap persoalan yang kadangkala timbul dalam hidup kita.
Kenapa semua ini terjadi padaku?
"Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi pula kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu, Allah mengetahui sedang kamu tidak mengetahui." (Al-Baqarah : 216)
Kenapa terlalu berat ujian ini?
"Allah tidak membebani seseorang itu melainkan sesuai dengan Kesanggupannya." (Al-Baqarah : 286)
Terasa kehidupan ini sudah tiada maknanya lagi bagiku.
"Janganlah kamu bersikap lemah, dan janganlah pula kamu bersedih hati, padahal kamulah orang-orang yang paling tinggi darjatnya, jika kamu orang-orang yang beriman." (Ali Imraan : 139)
"... ..dan janganlah kamu berputus asa dari rahmat Allah. Sesungguhnya tiada berputus asa dari rahmat Allah melainkan kaum yang kafir." (Yusuf : 87)
Bagaimana harus ku hadapi semua ini?
"Dan mintalah pertolongan (kepada Allah) dengan jalan sabar dan mengerjakan sembahyang; dan sesungguhnya sembahyang itu amatlah berat kecuali kepada orang-orang yang khusyuk." (Al-Baqarah : 45)
Apa yang akan kudapat daripada semua ini?
"Sesungguhnya Allah telah membeli dari orang-orang mu'min, diri, harta mereka dengan memberikan syurga untuk mereka.." (At-Taubah : 111)
Kepada siapa harus aku berharap?
"Cukuplah ! Allah bagiku, tidak ada Tuhan selain dari-Nya. Hanya kepadaNya aku bertawakkal." (At-Taubah : 129)
Berimankah aku?
"Apakah manusia itu mengira bahawa mereka dibiarkan saja mengatakan; "Kami telah beriman," sedangkan mereka tidak diuji? Dan sesungguhnya kami telah menguji orang-orang yang sebelum mereka, maka sesungguhnya Allah mengetahui orang-orang yang benar dan sesungguhnya Dia mengetahui orang-orang yang dusta?" (Al-Ankabut : 2-3)
Renungi dan redhalah terhadap ketentuan Allah SWT. Pasti tersingkap hikmah yang tersembunyi di sebalik setiap ujian-Nya. Bersabarlah duhai hati. Moga kita menjadi hamba yang redha dan diredhai-Nya.



Allah closes Doors that no Man
can Open and opens Doors that
no Man can Close. May he open
all the Doors you require to live
your life to the full....
Sharing the goodness and love that
is in your heart, will always leave you
When Allah is accepting Duas, may
yours be one of them. When he is
forgiving people, may you be one of
them. When you meet your friends
and family in heaven, may I be one
of them...
Allah is the reason for the joy we share,
the love we give and the hope that fills
our heart with peace. I wish you
Extravagant love and abundant joy...

May Allah enlighten our hearts and unite our extended families
Remove all traces of hatred, jealousy, pride, malice and other sicknesses that may occur
In our hearts.
Allow us to move on and not dwell in the past
If I have hurt, offended, neglected or annoyed any of you
May Allah pardon me for verily he knows best!
May Allah also grant those of us who have offspring the wisdom and understanding so that
We may nurture them into being phenomenal flag bearers of our wonderful deen
And not slaves of the dunya.


May the ALMIGHTY 'ALLAH' (the supreme judge of all) accept all our good deeds and special duaa’s Insha-Allah, Ameen!!



Semperna hari Jumaat yang mulia ini, aku ingin berbicara mengenai hari Jumaat dari pandangan aku. Mungkin sesetangah orang hari Jumaat adalah hari yang indah dan berkat. Mengikut Islam, hari Jumaat adalah permulaan hari dan banyak kelebihan pada hari Jumaat.

Dari perspektif biasa, siapa yang sukakan hari Jumaat?
  • Negeri Kelantan, Terengganu dan Kedah sebab cuti umum
  • Negeri lain, pekerja pasti suka sebab esok dah hari minggu. Cepat sungguh masa berlalu, rasa baru je Isnin dah Jumaat hari ini?
  • Pasangan suami isteri - pasti berseri-seri kerana mungkin berjaya membunuh setan
  • Sesiapa yang suka membeli belah di pasar masjid kerana banyak barangan yang di jual
  • Peniaga boleh berniaga berdekatan masjid. Ramai pengunjung yang singgah sementara hendak ke masjid. Moga murah rezeki peniaga.
  • Warga lelaki ke masjid kerana dapat makan pisang atau makanan lain. Jika di Masjid wilayah, kadang ada sediakan air, free sample produk pun ada.
  • Kepada yang nak balik kampung untuk jumpa keluarga atau suami/isteri, mesti tak sabar waktu balik kerja. Biasanya dah bawa beg siap-siap ke pejabat.. uhuhuhu
dan banyak lagi... boleh korang fikirkan?

Manakala dari perspektif Islam, Jumaat mempunyai kelebihanya seperti berikut:Imam Al-Ghazzali berkata bahawa Nabi s.a.w. bersabda yang bermaksud sebaik-baik hari yang terbit padanya matahari adalah hari Jumaat.Pada hari itu dijadikan Adam a.s. dan pada hari Jumaatlah terjadinya kiamat.

"Sesungguhnya hari Jumaat adalah penghulu segala hari dan semulia-mulia hari di sisi Allah."

Imam Al-Ghazzali menambah bahawa Kaab Al-Ahbar (seorang tabien dan ulama yahudi yang memeluk ugama islam pd zaman Saiyidina Abu Bakar) berkata burung-burung dan haiwan apabila bertemu satu sama lain pada hari Jumaat mengucapkan "Selamat, selamat hari yang baik".

Imam Al-Ghazzali juga berkata malam Jumaat mempunyai banyak kelebihan dan disunnahkan pd mereka yg mempunyai isteri bersatu pd malam itu.

Doa Antara Dua KhutbahKebanyakan ulama berpendapat waktunya adalah antara dua khutbah, iaitu pd saat imam sedang duduk setelah khutbah pertama sebelum beliau bangun utuk khutbah kedua. Saat inilah saat yang paling dimustajabkan doa.

Sedekah Pada Hari JumaatBersedekah membawa pahala yang besar. Ia menjauhkan bala, menjauhkan penyakit dan mendekatkan diri kepada Allah. Apalagi jika dilakukan pada hari Jumaat.

Mati Pada Malam JumaatHadis nabi "Tidak seorang muslim yg mati pada hari Jumaat atau pada malam Jumaat kecuali diselamatkan Allah daripada fitnah kubur".

Kelebihan Menunaikan Sembahyang JumaatNabi bersabda "Barangsiapa yg dapat menunaikan sembahyang Jumaat maka baginya disisi Allah pahala seratus orang yg mati syahid. Dan barangsiapa meninggalkan sembahyang Jumaat sebanyak 3 kali tanpa darurat, maka Allah akan mengecap hatinya".Ibadah pada hari Jumaat.
Perjalan ke masjid - adalah sunnah mengambil jln yg jauh tetapi apabila pulang sunnah ambil jln yang dekat - Imam Al-Ghazzali.

SelawatSabda nabi "Banyakkanlah berselawat ke atasku pd hari Jumaat kerana sesungguhnya ia adalah hari saksi (hari Jumaat) disaksikan oleh para malaikat.
Mandi dan Pakaian
Sunnah pada hari Jumaat memakai pakaian yang bersih, baru dan berwarna putih.

Memotong KukuIbn Masud berkata "Mereka yg memotong kuku pd hari Jumaat, Allah akan sembuhkan dia dari segala penyakit dan berikannya keselamatan.

Sumber kelebihan hari Jumaat:

Wednesday, October 20, 2010


Someone told Hasan Al-Basri Rahmatullahi alaiyh
that a certain person had gossiped about him.
Hearing this, Hasan Al-Basri sent a box of fresh dates
 to the person with the message,
" I have come to learn that you have
given me the rewards of your good actions.
I have sent this small gift in appreciation.
Please forgive me for not returning the favour in full."


Tuesday, October 19, 2010


In the name of God, the Lord of Mercy, the Giver of Mercy

People, be mindful of your Lord,
for the earthquake of the Last Hour will be a mighty thing:
on the Day you see it, every nursing mother will think no more of her baby,
every pregnant female will miscarry,
you will think people are drunk when they are not,
so severe will be God's torment.
Yet still there are some who, with no knowledge, argue about God,
who follow every devilish rebel
fated to lead astray those who take his side
and guide them to the suffering of the blazing flame.
(22:1-5) translated by M.A.S. Abdel Haleem


After Having Reached At The Peak Of His Career A Man Felt An Urge To Repay Back To His Mother For All That She Had Done For Him. So He Asked Her,"Mother, What Can I Give You? What Can I Do For You? I Sincerely Want To Repay You For All The Sacrifices You Have Made For Me And For All The Love You Have Showered Upon Me." She Looked Surprised And Said, " Why Do You Think About It. It Was My Duty So I Did It, You Don't Have To Repay Me. Even If You Want To, There Is No Way A Man Can Ever Repay His Mother."
Despite Her Continuous Refusal To Ask For Anything, He Continued To Persist.To Put An End To The Discussion, She Said, "All Right. If You Must,Then Tonight You Sleep On My Bed, With Me, Just As You Used To When  You Were A Baby." He Said, "That's A Strange Thing To Ask For, But If It  Pleases You, I Will."

As Soon As He Fell Asleep, The Mother Got up And Brought A Bucket Of Water.She Poured A Mug Full Of Water On His Side. Feeling Disturbed By The Wetness Under Him, In His Sleep He Moved Away To The Other Side Of The Bed. As He Settled Down, His Mother Poured Another Mug Of Water On The Other Side.In His Slumber , He Tried To Find Space Towards The Foot Post Of The Bed.Sometime Later He Woke Up Feeling That This Part Of The Bed Too Was Damp. He Got Up And Saw His Mother, With The Mug In  HerHand. He Asked Angrily,"What Are You Doing Mother? Why Don't You  Let Me Sleep? How Do You Expect Me To Sleep On A Wet Bed?"

She Said, "I Slept With You, When You Wetted The Bed In The Night. I Changed Your diaper ) And Moved You To The Dry Part Of The Bed, While I Slept On The Wet Side.You Wanted To Repay Me ... Can You Sleep Here Even For One Night With Me On A  Damp Bed? If You Can, I'll Take It That You Have Repaid Me."

How True It Is That Of All The Debts In The World, The One That Can Never Be Repaid Is The One You Owe To Your Mother. You Can Never Repay The Love, Care And Time Your Mother Gave To Bring You Up. You Are A Part  Of Her Flesh And Blood; Don't Forget This, Because She Never  Ever Forgets It.

The Prophet Muhammad said, may Allah's peace and blessings be upon him: Your Heaven lies under the feet of your mother (Ahmad, Nasai).

Angels can't be everywhere, so God created Mothers



Tears are of four types.
They are tears of love,
tears of fear,
tears of hope and
tears of pain.
The best "cry", is the cry when you are all alone,
weeping out of fear,hope and love of Allah.
For just two tears can put up the fire of hell
whereas the whole water of oceans cannot do so...

Monday, October 18, 2010


She is a visible form of love, a marvellous sign of creation and a splendid being of beauty.She is the tallest when she stands, prominent when she sits and the  most truthful when she speaks.She is the one whose anger subsides quickly, who appeases her husband if he's angry and whose laugh is a beautiful smile.

She is gorgeous but untouchable, precious but unplayable, fragile but unbreakable and simple but unforgettable .

She is rich by her good manners, noble because of her religion and beautiful because of love she gives and recieves.She obeys her husband and adheres to her home (goes out only if required or necessary). She is honored among her people, yet insignificant in her own mind.She is  fertile and fragrant  to her husband, affectionate and passionate towards her children, and  kind and generous towards her subordinates.When she does anything, she does it well.Moreover her faith is unshakeable, honor is unchallengeable, and undeniable are her services.

Exclusive example: The best girls are like dates on the trees. The best ones are at the top of the tree.The boys don't want to reach for the good ones because they are afraid of falling and getting hurt. Instead, they just get the simple ones from the ground that aren't as good, but easy. So the dates (girls) at the top think something is wrong with them, when in reality, they're amazing.They just have to wait for the right boy to come along, the one who's brave enough to climb all the way to the top of the tree.

Awesome analogy: For a fruit to be sweet, it's seed must be good, for the seed to be good it's provison must be  lawful and for the seed to be sown, it's field must be fertile ~ Hamid.blogspot


Abu Hurayra (r.a.) narrated that the Messenger of Allah (s.a.w.) said:

''Do you know who the greatest loser is?''

The Companions answered: ''He is the one who has completely lost all of his wealth and his livelilood.''

The Prophet (s.a.w.) replied: ''Not at all! The biggest loser among my nation will be the one who comes to the Day of Judgement bringing all his prayers, his fasting and his charitable deeds, but also has abused one person, cheated another, stolen from another and drawn the blood of another.

 Allah will give all his good deeds to the people whom he harmed, and if they are not sufficient to repay the harm he has done, then the wrong actions of his victims will be piled on his head and the angels will be ordered to take him to the Fire.''

Friday, October 15, 2010


My Mother taught me LOGIC...
"If you fall off that swing and break your neck, you can't go to the store with me."

My Mother taught me MEDICINE...
"If you don't stop crossing your eyes, they're going to freeze that way."

My Mother taught me TO THINK AHEAD...
"If you don't pass your spelling test, you'll never get a good job!"

My Mother taught me ESP...
"Put your sweater on; don't you think that I know when you're cold?"

My Mother taught me TO MEET A CHALLENGE...
"What were you thinking? Answer me when I talk to you...Don't talk back to me!"

My Mother taught me HUMOR... 
"When that lawn mower cuts off your toes, don't come running to me."

My Mother taught me how to BECOME AN ADULT... 
"If you don't eat your vegetables, you'll never grow up.

My mother taught me ABOUT SEX... 
"How do you think you got here?"

My mother taught me about GENETICS... 
"You are just like your father!"

My mother taught me about my ROOTS... 
"Do you think you were born in a barn?"

My mother taught me about the WISDOM of AGE... 
"When you get to be my age, you will understand."

My mother taught me about ANTICIPATION... 
"Just wait until your father gets home."

My mother taught me about RECEIVING...
You are going to get it when we get home and my all time favorite thing:

My mother taught me about JUSTICE... 
"One day you will have kids, and I hope they turn out just like YOU..then you'll see what it's like."
Nicknote: And ya know what ? EVERY Mom has probably said that last one. And it works out just the way she hoped......